I still love you. It's been such a long time, yet, there are still soooo many things I like about you. All the memories I have of us are nothing but cherish-able. We had such crazy fun times. You are funny, you are daring, you are so strong both inside and out! I am usually the person who makes other ppl cross their limits, but you are the one person who always pushed me to cross my limits. You are the only person who not only understood and but also resonated so well with the crazy side of me.
As with most relationships, there were indeed a lot of things we didn't like about each other and found no way to get over it, avoid it or live with it. They kept coming in our way, getting on our nerves. According to me, communication can help find a win-win solution to any disagreements. According to you, one needs to just swallow up the things they don't like about the other person and move on. We are both right. Rather, neither of us are wrong. We both tried each other's way as much as we could. But neither of us believed or liked the other person's approach. In the name of communication, as I blurt everything out and you felt like i'm constantly complaining while you were always putting up with me. This left a bad after-taste that only built up over time. The ramifications of you disliking me were pretty apparent. Staying together didn't make sense anymore. It wouldn't be good for either of us. I know that a part of you did love me! I only hope that we din't ruin all of it!Though there are a lot of things you did that simply doesn't sit well with me, when i think of you, i only feel sadness. Not hate, but sadness! Sad that we could've been such great friends but we aren't. Sad to see so much lost potential. Sad that neither of us could find a way to work it out. Sad that hate won and is still winning over love!!
I really really want to, but I am at loss trying to find a way for us to be friends! Even if we started all over again, I feel we would end up in the exact same place. Because, as much as we are the same in so many ways, we are also very different in many other crucial ways! I wish things were simple!
I miss you! A lot!
I always will!
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